Sunday, April 30, 2006

 

wat u had told mi, gif mi e reason 2 stay in denial..
where e happiness u promised 2 hav..? cant realli trust wat u once told mi..indulge in ya confusion N dilemma..
ya way too complicated. its too much 4 mi 2 handle..u disable my ability 2 fall in love, no matter how much exposure i had. juz wanna remain oblivious to all kinda new r/s..cant feel anytin, im juz numb. had a realli hard time, exhausting myself completely; indulge myself in e pain..
im not ya priority anymore, im juz an option nw..

{ moonlight shone on } oOpZz at
 4/30/2006 06:28:00 PM  
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Monday, April 24, 2006

 

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens up your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build all these defences, you build up a whole suit of armour, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other person, wanders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something crazy one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like "it's over, we are done" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

{ moonlight shone on } oOpZz at
 4/24/2006 06:14:00 PM  
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